Diary Of a Lost – 2007

Cover Diary of a Lost

01. Suicide Landscape

Grew up in this shadow land
With a suicide landscape
Where the dark seas are whispering
From the edge to the deepest end

Grew up in this shadow land

With a suicide landscape
Where the black birds are singing
Where the black birds are falling down

Look up to these fallen stars
In a broken light sky shape
Where all these tongues in my head
All these tongues are still lancing

Look up to these fallen stars
In a broken light sky shape
Where all these guns in my head
All these guns are still dancing

Still dancing in my head
Still dancing in my head
Still dancing in my head
Are still dancing in my head

And I’m breaking and my name is on fire
And I go up and go down and see
There’s a sign to deny all this blindness
And I’m rising forever
Feel this night, feel this blood in my veins

And I am still here
And I am still here

Still dancing in my head
Still dancing in my head
Still dancing in my head
Are still dancing in my head

02. One Step to Heaven

One step to heaven
And two to the ground
One step to heaven
You were never so proud
One step to heaven
And two to the ground
And nothing will ever
Nothing will ever
Ever take you down
Ever take

And I will see you again, again

One step to heaven
And two to the ground
And go we for heaven
And I will see you
Again, again, again

And I will see you
Again, again, again

One step to heaven
And two to the ground
One step to heaven
I was never so proud
One step to heaven
And two to the ground
And nothing will ever
Nothing will ever
Ever take me down
Ever take

And you will see me again, again
One step to heaven
And two to the ground
And go we for heaven
And you will see me
Again, again, again

And you will see me
Again, again, again

03. Hunters

So I’m creeping down and I’m creeping

forwards
And I’m cruelly walking by
And I’m coming out of this cave
I’m walking around you
I’m walking around you

In this novel of crime when I hear in this
freezing sound calling my name now
Shouting to come out now
Shouting to come out now

In this novel of grime when I hear in this
whispering sound calling my name now
Out of this dreaming and a howling light
out of my mind now

So I’m creeping down and I’m creeping
forwards
And I’m cruelly waking by
And I’m coming out of this cave
I’m walking around you
I’m walking around you

In this novel of crime when I hear in this
dreadful sound calling my name now
Shouting to come out now
Shouting to come out now

And the night is full of hunters
And all are hunting me

And the night is full of hunters
And all are hunting me

And the night is full of hunters
And all are hunting me

04. Kingdoms of Cancer

And we leave all these kings
And these kingdoms of cancer
And we leave all these fights,
These fights full of anger
And we leave all this now
And we leave all this now
And we all stand up now
And we hear and we see

And we leave all these teachers
They teach us no answers
And we leave all these priests
The priests are all fighting
And we leave all this now
And we all stand up now

And we hear and we cry
And we leave all these liars
And we leave all these mothers
They shattered our dreaming
And we leave all these fathers
They can’t hear us crying
And we leave all these soldiers
They’ve forgotten good prayers
And we leave all these prophets
And their wishful unsaying

And I cry out in this mud
And I fear it in the night
And I look up in this all
and I feed on this pain
And I read all these signs I see
Every time I’m being seen
Aching and hoping,
No secrets to hide

And I’m counting all these fires on the sea
And this cold and dark rain I can see
And this loving is coming down
And I see this light is here

And we leave all these kings
And these kingdoms of cancer
And we leave all these fights
These fights full of anger
And we leave all this now
And we all stand up now
And we hear it and we see it in
And look up to the stars

And we leave all these teachers
They teach us no answers
And we leave all these fears
These ships without anchors
And we leave all this now
And we all stand up now
And we break down these walls
Than it’s coming, it’s coming

And I’m counting all these fires on the sea
And this cold and dark rain I can see
And this loving is coming down
And I see this light is here

05. Qui Tollis (Victims of Love)

Another time for crucifying
It is a time to shade us down
Every lie, every tear, every thought
In the name of Benedictus
Another time to see God
All these cold and cold hands around
Look in their secret eyes here
Other victims of love

Perfect time for crucifying
And it’s the time to see an aim
They teach us the Limbus Patrum lie
There are new victims of love
Perfect time and in time we die
And all this hate and all this sorrow
All this torture of this love
In the name of Benedictus 

Victims of love
Victims of love

Victims of love
Victims of love
Victims of hate
Victims of faith
Victims of reason
Victims of enlightenment
Victims of time
Victims of time
Victims of time

06. Forgiveness

When I see in this time
I see this endless light is coming through
When I see you
When I see in this coming down and every time
I fear it inside
When all this sitting, crawling here and keeping down
And I feel sad and tired
When every take and every aim takes seven times to define you
When every time you’re in this all and you forgave me
You break within

Whenever you and I can feel
You’re lost in time and
I am lost in you

And I’ll go home
And I’ll go home

When I see in this time
I see this endless light is coming through
When I see you
When I see in this coming down and in my mind
I fear it inside
When every sign is coming out and I never take you down
To see it in me
When every fighting is as precious as coming down to seven tears to sail
When every time you’re in this all and you forgave me
You break within

Whenever you and I can feel
You’re lost in time and
I am lost in you

And I’m coming home
And I’m coming home
And I’m coming home
And I’m coming home

07. Nevertime

I want this nevertime this neverfear this neverviolence
Take you to neverlife and never ever take you down
Seizing nevertime and never feel in neversilence
I go down and I never call your name

I want this nevertime this neverfear this neverviolence
Take you to neversea, neverhope with neverdeadly eye
Take you to nevertown and never feel in neversilence
I will take you down and I will call your name

And call your name

I want this nevertime this neverfear this neverviolence
Take you to neversea, neverhope with neverdeadly eye
Take you to nevertown and never feel in neversilence
I will take you down and I will call your name

And call your name

I want to call, I want to see
I want to ride and take it
I want to keep it down in me
I am saving another time
I want to hear, I want to feel
Want this time to say it
I want to take and call your name
Finding nevertime now

I want to see, I want to call
Want to ride in your heart
I want to break it when I see
Every time I’m falling
I want to take, I want to see
Want to love and say it
I want to take you every time
you’ll see never ever

I want to keep, I want to die
I want to see this fire
I want to keep going down this lane
This lane to nowhere
I want to go, I want to hide
I want to see forever
I want to feel this nevertime here
this time, you see

I want to keep, I want to die
Want to feel forever
I want to hear it coming down
and another time, you see
I want to feel, I want to give
want to die in your heart
I want to say, I want to crawl
And kiss your lies goodbye

08. Trapped

And if your life they are cribbing
And they take you the key
And they see you in all lost to remind
You are trapped to die
Still got your beautiful life

And if your life they are cribbing
And they take you the key
And they see you in all lost to remind
You are trapped to die
Still got your beautiful life

Hear the demons at the demons night here in town
Hear the demons they’re crying and all they can find
Is the black ballot box 7679
And they are coming, they’re coming, they’re coming through

Hear the demons at the demons night they’re in time
Hear the demons they’re weeping and all they can hide
Is the cold ballot box 7679
And they are coming, they’re coming, they’re coming through

And if your life they are cribbing
And they take you the key
And they see you in all lost to remind
You are trapped to die
Still got your beautiful life

You’ve got this beautiful life

09. Monsters in Me

One takes you down a seven
Seven times seven lights to the seven doors
Because there is no way for changing
For changing

Like a stranger comes to town
Brings seven fears and seven lies and all this weeping
All this weeping

In the same room I was doomed hereinto and where into I cam in all this
creeping

These seven cruises through seven nights
Seven times seven lights to the seven fights
You’re creeping down you’re creeping down here

When the light in the night on the river side
And you’re creeping down forward and I wish your head for mine
And I wish your head, I wish your head fell down

These seven pearls in seven eyes
These seven tears these seven tears here

I see a black rainbow see a black town within fire
When I hold you while the sun goes down

And the sun goes down with seventeen eyes and they’re coming
down these monsters in me
And they’re coming down when my heart is beating
When my heart is counting

Once and forever this noisy song will always be playing
And it takes you down takes you in, in this creeping down forward
longings in the nights cry

Listen to the snow that’s falling, how long a tear to come in down here
Listen to the snow that’s falling, it brings a whispering of your death
Listen to the snow that’s falling brings you whispers of your death
The whispers of your death the whispers of your death is here
Listen to the snow that’s falling will bring these shadows
Listen to the snow that’s falling it brings a whisper of the death
And listen to the death it brings you whispers of your birth
It is calling you

Call your name call it now call it never
Call your name call it now call it never
Call your name call it now call it never

Your heart, this icon of your name, to take this sound this endless rhyme
I bring you seven rhymes I bring you seven rhymes all so wild
Also so wild

And the heart of beat is dreaming and the heart of beat is dreaming
until the end of
The end of the road

And I see all these shadows on this
My crimson credit of the day
When the day would keep it on

And the fire of the night and the night of the fire and may light up my crying,
I’m crying with secret eyes
You came with the night came with the night
You came with the night you came and your skin as white as the moon
And your skin as white as the white moon and recall the love so often
in my eyes you used to see

10. Fight Song

Here comes the tide inside
And when I am fighting here this one
Never the light is coming down
And you’re by my side some time
And when I’m fighting here and I’m torn inside
Running and crawling into the night
And here comes the time inside to give love
Bring you some blighting star unknown

Coldness is a break in civilization and a break to salvation
Down here is horrible starving and this burrying unnamed
In the conquest of your love
Call you seven times seven times
I’m calling in the dark
And I’m out of fear
And I’m broken up broken down
Never ever see the light
Never ever see the light

Here comes the tide inside
And when I am fighting here this one
Never the light is coming down
And you’re by my side some time
And when I’m fighting here and I’m torn inside
Running and crawling into the night
And here comes the time inside to give love
Bring you some blighting star unknown

Coldness is a break in civilization and a break to salvation
Down here is horrible starving and this burring unnamed
In the convent of you love
See this seven times seven times
These pictures in the dark
And I’m out of fear
And I’m broken up broken down
Never ever see the light
Follow this avenue down into this bloody hell

11. Isle Of Desire

In the silence of the night when all these shapes as bright
And I’m leaving my visions all so mystified
I’m just dreaming on when they are all gone
And I follow these stars and my seek is unknown

So I’m coming I’m coming to this distant isle
And I’m taking her in with full fire
Another taking ile taking them taking me
Find a person who’s shipwrecked in a misty dawn

Where these dancers are dancing all with this fire
And their hope and their dream keep this lost desire
And I fear while they’re singing that I’m being seen
Cause I am tired to fall down and I’m feeling home

And I’m taking this fire
And I’m taking this fire

So I’m coming I’m coming to this distant isle
And I’m taking her in with full fire
Another taking ile taking them taking me
Find a person who’s shipwrecked in a misty dawn

So I’m coming I’m coming to this distant isle
And I’m taking him in with full fire
Another taking ile taking them taking me
Find a person who’s shipwrecked in a misty dawn

Where these dancers are dancing all with this fire
And their hope and their dream keep this lost desire
And I fear while they’re singing that I’ve been seen
Cause I am tired to fall down and I’m feeling home

And I’m taking this fire
And I’m taking this fire

12. Lovehate

Love is our hate and we come into this
Love is our hate and we go into this